minutes and seconds

mixtape-butch walker
You say hello, inside I'm screaming I love you
You say goodnight, in my mind
I'm sleeping next to you
You drive away from my car crash of a heart
And I don't know
But you gave me the best mixtape I have
And even all the bad songs ain't so bad
I just wish there was so much more than that
About me and you
You talk to him, and it burns me like the sun
You talk to her, and you say that you feel like he's the one
I talk to me, but you can't hear the pain I feel
You don't know
Oh, don't turn around and say bye again
Yeah it crushes my head when you call me
Your friend and I'm not the same person
From back in the day in the back of the class
That you thought was gay
No I can't find the words cause I lost them
The minute they fell out of my mouth
And it's love and I'm in it, so give me your lips
And just let me kiss 'em
And let's get messed up and listen to probably...

a step took a minute, it took two heartbeats to generate enough power to take that step
the next step took longer
and longer
till i finally made the final step home
felt like dying, collapsing on the bed and yes just slip away...
it gets more and more tiring
so are lessons draining my brain cells
im slowly being eaten by stress... first the piling tutorials then the upcoming competition
that demands of both mental perserverance and also demanding my ability to withstand the long hours of practice.
everytime as we stand there and play what they call music, every note needed to be from the heart, with a movement like a dance.
and each time we're dismissed we brace each other on. cheers and shouts, but we all know inside we're dying...
its fatigue. fatigue that is not just from the long hours in school and trying to catch up with tutorials or the long way home
but also at the sight that the competition is so near yet so far and in this 2 weeks,it'll be intensive.
seeing that each day would be like a cycle of events, we get tired... but there's no way to be out of it.

yes i've chose my path and dedicated myself onto this path for about more than a year already.
i whined about the stress
i moaned about the fatigue
but i dont regret what i have chosen
i just wished for you to understand how tough it has been... this long road
although i dont expect an outward demonstration of care but nonetheless just wished to have your understanding
and not mere comments that i shouldnt have chosen this path
but thanks a million for a few caring words, for making me alive once again that yes i need to still fight on. coz i chose this path...
and i'll finish it...

累了，病了，想要停止了。你呢？你跑到哪去了？我现在最需要的是你。我好想好想你。前两天刚见了你但现在想你的感觉有如一正个星期没见到你。宝贝，你听到了吗？

just like you

if a word takes a second to be uttered, three words would take 3 seconds or so. but to mean that may take days or even years. those words that would simply melt your heart are those that went through the speaker's mind a million times coupled with courage to be uttered so sincerely like this.
he said,"i think im really in love with you"
you sang it, the song. it wasnt just a song for me. that moment you sang like you meant it. though cliche but yes those lyrics sound so real just like you had planned to sing that to me. the right moment came. and the wrong emotions overwhelmed. not exactly the wrong emotions but emotions that are unexpected at that moment. silly you said but just like the way you motivated me with those words, you're silly...

dommy is very happia in lalaland with honey hammy!!

drift.breathed

1,2,3,4-plain white t's :D
1-2-1-2-3-4
Give me more loving than I’ve ever had
Make me feel better when I’m feeling sad
Tell me I’m special even though I know I’m no
tMake me feel good when I hurt so bad
Barely getting mad
I’m so glad I found you
I love being around you
You make it easy
Its as easy as 1-2-1-2-3-4
There’s only one thing
To Do
Three words
For you(I love you)
I love you
There’s only one way to say
Those three words
That’s what I’ll do(I love you)
I love you
Give me more loving from the very start
Piece me back together when I fall apart
Tell me things you never even tell your closest friends
Make me feel good when I hurt so bad
You’re the best that I’ve had
And I’m so glad I found you
I love being around you
You make it easy

now that we're back being happy and gay its even more difficult than ever for me to be filtrated out.
the bond is ever the strongest ever learnt in the whole of chemistry
no music would sound as sweet as the words you said to me today in the rain
no gp essay would score as high as the marks you've gotten in my little test for you right there in my heart
a beautiful picture we had drawn ever since we met right there at the middle of the bridge
this long crosscountry journey was a crazy ride from happy gay times to ultimately sad days
an emotional roller coaster ride through everything over and over again.
burst out and made up
a big kiss and cuddly hug we're alright once more...
do it again do it again dear dear
im so addicted to you right now.
says who we cant be lovey dovey as we used to just because of our packed schedule?
~you make me go gaga

all the best vjco we have around 25 more days left to syf!
hard work, we're all drained and stuff but no one can ever deny that we had much fun and we really bond together
we had a pretty much successful rehearsal today now we're a step nearer the peak.
this aint a competition to me anymore. this has became my learning process.
through music i've learnt so much more about people and life and it just so true and so very applicable!!

ah finally caught up with me deary ah ma after such a long long long time:D
miss her lots lots lots man!
i shall go upload the photos we took
bleh my eyes were miniature on that day though:X
had a pretty fun time with another jasmine and dino yepyep!
excited to meet my deary ahma again yeah!!:D

whisper

the fray-you found me
I found God On the corner of
First and Amistad
Where the west
Was all but won
All alone Smoking his last cigarette
I said, "Where you been?"
He said, "Ask anything".
Where were you
When everything was falling apart?
All my days
Were spent by the telephone
It never rang
And all I needed was a call
It never came
To the corner of First and Amistad
Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lyin' on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, you found me
In the end
Everyone ends up alone
Losing her
The only one who's ever known
Who I am
Who I´m not, who I wanna be
No way to know
How long she will be next to me
Early morning
The city breaks
I've been callin'
For years and years and years and years
And you never left me no messages
Ya never sent me no letters
You got some kinda nerve
Taking all our world

a moment of losing control, of getting overwhelmed by sadness... starred at you as i waited for the tears to blur my vision. and in that blurred view, it became even clearer than when my vision wasn't blur. it dawned unto me. this is so difficult... coz lately we've been getting by, surviving life not living it. trying to survive on the memories of the past. yet the present astagnant work-study oriented kind of life. and even if we do meet, the fatigue sets in and there goes the clock ticking as we fall into a deep sleep. i take joy in the fact that im in your embrace but nonetheless as you leave out of that door, i stared and wondered... where's the laughter we used to share together. its getting worse the amount of time left for each other... its wasnt quantity for a long time and yet quality is suffering right now... i wasted it, the golden opportunity, wasted it on tears on walking away coz of ridiculous reasons... 1 year plus now... everything's just aint gonna spare us... its tough, i cried at that thought... when can i see you break out of your fatigue and have ultimate fun with me? end of your work? yet that's just my time to be in school everyday for practice once again... then thereafer, exams and more stress... this is crazy. i want to visit all our favorite hideouts, relive the moments. i wanted to sit there and just think of us, maybe cry to let it out... but you wouldn't let me... i wont lie to you that i back my word that i wouldnt go there but right there at that moment its impossible to reveal to you my true emotions... i hate to brace a smile, but no im truly happy with you.. i just didnt want you to worry... we need to live through this. behold a challenge once again~

the banana tree

whats yellow and there's a song made out of it?
it is NOT banana,acire
it is LEMON
HAHAH had such a fun time blasting music in v40 and mugging :D yea lets keep doing that!~

gosh now my life's been eaten up by all the practices else the tutorials and catching up of lectures
TIRING!
im practically a zombie now!
you should look at those gross eyebags):
zomg... im dying dying dying dead
and my boy's tired too):
collapsed...
AHHHH my poor ke lian zhu! ):
weekend's aint no recovery time now, its still as draining...
33 more days to syf...
and alevel's drawing nearer...
):
ah wells let me whine while i can! but i'll take joy in the littlest things now:D