finally, the knight came home
the horses halt to a stop
all else didnt matter at all, time stopped
only our hearts beating right now
a big fat warm hug is all she needs and is what she always dreamt of
the long wait the repeated playbacks of how this day would be
none is the same, none could compare
it aint exactly dramatic yet in its simplicity just tells how much love and care is still present through the tough days
she realises, when youre happy, everything else is pretty and beautiful
the little kid who's eating the biscuit is cute beyong imagination but just because she'e especially today
she wasnt one of those in front of the arriving gates stretching her neck reaf far to really see
she didnt wear those uber high stilts to get above of others just to see clearly
she needn't
just having to stand amidst the crowd, feeling the dynamics of her heartbeat
slowly retracking in her head
repeatedly saying, in a few more minutes i'll see him
this went on for about 40 minutes or so
the anxiety the fantasizing of the various scenes had made her cheeks flush chilli red
she could not follow the rhythm of her heart beat no more
she's focussed on the words that he's back he's back instead
nothing else matter when he came through the gates with those eager eyes
when she spotted him, she cared nothing else
just dashing through the people and straight into his arms
the warmth so foreign yet deep down she knows she's familiar with it
the way her hands were around his waist felt almost awkward but she knows this is only natural
or rather she tried to feel natural about it
that voice, the one that assured her every night suddenly seemed even more distant
it took her 10 whole minutes to find back the feeling again
10 whole minutes to come into realisation that he's really home
the sight of him, she heaved a sigh of relief, that ton of weight upon her shoulders are all gone
all she has to do now is just to stare at him
that few hours after the flight is never enough, it makes the longing worse.
happiness is an underestimation of her feelings right now.
she just wants time and more time with her knight who came home last night
nothing else
now onwards to the fairytale night:D
20091013
20091010
all these people
teeny wheeny thoughts:
hanging by a moment
VIVA LA VICTORIA...
goodbye vjc, goodbye igloo,goodbye ctc, goodbye vjco...
i made the step out of the gates today.
no more a vjc student.
just one waiting for the BIG As
2 years ago, i made my first step in
today i say to myself, no regrets
just happiness and joy
it was how it all begun
from one who never thought of being a student here to being someone who loves school so much now
and now, here comes goodbye
but doesnt matter, im happy i glad i came out of being the little girl by the corner to one who speaks loud in front of the class
S38, thank you so much for the lovely moments: slv, ymca citi-proms, cny, all the banner painting, mass dances....etc
so many so many amazing memories
this's just it you see, the happy beginning and ending of my 2 years in vjc
you were the ones who walked me through it
though there were times i regret for not making the whole class really bonded as a whole
but there aint going back now.
there's only the appreciation of the way things are right now
as i say goodbye, i wish to say remember me not the weird girl who screams and is absolutely insane but certainly the girl who came out of her comfort zone and attempted to bond the class as a whole
as i said its not easy at all leading as a friend but you guys really made it much much easier
to glen, i forgot to mention, thanks for being such a great help, though we used to have disagreements and everything youre still my good good assistant:D:D
acire,aloy,collin, thanks for being there, else i could have just collapsed.
thanks for clearing all my thoughts again, most certainly you guys had put that smile back onto my face again
when everything was blurred by my tears, you guys were my eyes, just showing me the way
thanks so much for being there.
i know i was being unreasonable and wilful but nonetheless you guys understood my position and said its all ok...
so with many thanks to yall, im strong again!:D
steelwoman is back up for existence in 3 more days...
goodbye vjc, goodbye igloo,goodbye ctc, goodbye vjco...
i made the step out of the gates today.
no more a vjc student.
just one waiting for the BIG As
2 years ago, i made my first step in
today i say to myself, no regrets
just happiness and joy
it was how it all begun
from one who never thought of being a student here to being someone who loves school so much now
and now, here comes goodbye
but doesnt matter, im happy i glad i came out of being the little girl by the corner to one who speaks loud in front of the class
S38, thank you so much for the lovely moments: slv, ymca citi-proms, cny, all the banner painting, mass dances....etc
so many so many amazing memories
this's just it you see, the happy beginning and ending of my 2 years in vjc
you were the ones who walked me through it
though there were times i regret for not making the whole class really bonded as a whole
but there aint going back now.
there's only the appreciation of the way things are right now
as i say goodbye, i wish to say remember me not the weird girl who screams and is absolutely insane but certainly the girl who came out of her comfort zone and attempted to bond the class as a whole
as i said its not easy at all leading as a friend but you guys really made it much much easier
to glen, i forgot to mention, thanks for being such a great help, though we used to have disagreements and everything youre still my good good assistant:D:D
acire,aloy,collin, thanks for being there, else i could have just collapsed.
thanks for clearing all my thoughts again, most certainly you guys had put that smile back onto my face again
when everything was blurred by my tears, you guys were my eyes, just showing me the way
thanks so much for being there.
i know i was being unreasonable and wilful but nonetheless you guys understood my position and said its all ok...
so with many thanks to yall, im strong again!:D
steelwoman is back up for existence in 3 more days...
20090929
i dont wish to know
it is about time you get home now, 13 more days
after tonight 12 more
then goodbye to those sleepless nights
then hello to sweet mornings and lovely messages
goodbye to bad bad internet
bye to expensive expensive topup cards
finally!
what if i said i was immune to it all right now or something?
after tonight 12 more
then goodbye to those sleepless nights
then hello to sweet mornings and lovely messages
goodbye to bad bad internet
bye to expensive expensive topup cards
finally!
what if i said i was immune to it all right now or something?
20090926
an empty shell
teeny wheeny thoughts:
the lone sunset
the veronicas- this love
like an abandoned kid, i wandered alone on the streets
there was a place i was heading
but my heart was left somewhere i dont know where
just an empty shell walking around over there
like a ball thrown in the storeroom, im left to dust and dust only
then slowly all else became the black and white movies
just going real slow, aimless and goalless, i made my way to my destination
where goes my mood in the morning i dunno...
where goes all the laughter watching the movie, i dont know
ever since walking... then its all gone
i dont know where goes the soul
just an empty shell trying to come face to face with her feelings right now
shes running away even from herself. let her be
there will be a day she come to terms with herself.. there will definitely be
like an abandoned kid, i wandered alone on the streets
there was a place i was heading
but my heart was left somewhere i dont know where
just an empty shell walking around over there
like a ball thrown in the storeroom, im left to dust and dust only
then slowly all else became the black and white movies
just going real slow, aimless and goalless, i made my way to my destination
where goes my mood in the morning i dunno...
where goes all the laughter watching the movie, i dont know
ever since walking... then its all gone
i dont know where goes the soul
just an empty shell trying to come face to face with her feelings right now
shes running away even from herself. let her be
there will be a day she come to terms with herself.. there will definitely be
20090920
the life of a psycho
the morning routine(ok its early noon to be honest):
- wake up brush teeth and ya you know pee and all that
- prepare breakfast and sit in front of the com
- start typing an email and eat breakfast
- slack a little while more, doing lame quizzes on facebook
- blog about stupid and random stuff just coz i dun wanna study
- say i'll study
- and say ok lets shit first
- have a damn good time reading magazine while "filtering"
- and really go study
ok these 9 things sound pretty normal, but to describe the explicit details, i think thats being psychotic:D
morning songs:
- jamie scott and the town- when will i see your face again
- james morrison-you make it real
- veronicas-everything im not
IM SO GONNA WATCH CHUCK AND SARAH MOMENTS:D so sweet!
20090915
this is the period
exam period=geek specs, the exam hair period
people comb up their fringe, bun up theri hair, dig out their specs to wear so to tell others IM READY FOR IT
thn they get hell stressed up too, start staying up all night to study, pop a few more snacks and tidbits into the mouth
so that explains the few more pounds round our waists, the few more pimples on our faces
and why we're so CRAZY right now
its just the exam man....
people comb up their fringe, bun up theri hair, dig out their specs to wear so to tell others IM READY FOR IT
thn they get hell stressed up too, start staying up all night to study, pop a few more snacks and tidbits into the mouth
so that explains the few more pounds round our waists, the few more pimples on our faces
and why we're so CRAZY right now
its just the exam man....
20090913
its not that easy
its not that easy anymore, just merely contacting you
got to do so much more
type in more numbers on the cell lets see
37 keys just to make a call
hmm then how bout, calling at the right time else be transferred into the mailbox
thn nudging a million times on msn
doing yoohooos on skype
you there in endless mails
its not that easy to contact through the cyberspace after all
unlike the past, a few rings and youre through
a few words and pring you appeared in front of me
now it takes THE RIGHT MOMENT to see you on skype
and about 5 weeks later to see you
it aint that easy anymore
so it aint the same anymore too
trying to hug through the webcam gosh wad are we doing
trying to talk but the system lagging and all sorts like that
wanted to message and call, but considering the money... well forget it
just blank stares out of the window now
leading me to our past
and well yup nothing more
just looking at our messages, thinking how sweet
but that will have to wait
just nights where i need so much tossing an turning to fall into sleep now
just the morning emails with breakfast
ah i like that part
just bad weird and random dreams showing my insecurity deep inside now
thats the worst
and basically MUGGING
just talking to myself and psyching myself to study now
thats what i need to pull through the day
just a chat and life is back to square one
all alone
just doing it all to make myself smile a bit
but its never the same anymore
life's different now
will it change back to the original when youre back
will it be the same 4 weeks from now
i dont know, i darent think
just taking a step at a time
trying to cry less,
trying to study a little more each day
and waiting so much longer just for an hour of chat
yup, i guess life's been this way for about 2 weeks now
im still hanging on
good thing!
got to do so much more
type in more numbers on the cell lets see
37 keys just to make a call
hmm then how bout, calling at the right time else be transferred into the mailbox
thn nudging a million times on msn
doing yoohooos on skype
you there in endless mails
its not that easy to contact through the cyberspace after all
unlike the past, a few rings and youre through
a few words and pring you appeared in front of me
now it takes THE RIGHT MOMENT to see you on skype
and about 5 weeks later to see you
it aint that easy anymore
so it aint the same anymore too
trying to hug through the webcam gosh wad are we doing
trying to talk but the system lagging and all sorts like that
wanted to message and call, but considering the money... well forget it
just blank stares out of the window now
leading me to our past
and well yup nothing more
just looking at our messages, thinking how sweet
but that will have to wait
just nights where i need so much tossing an turning to fall into sleep now
just the morning emails with breakfast
ah i like that part
just bad weird and random dreams showing my insecurity deep inside now
thats the worst
and basically MUGGING
just talking to myself and psyching myself to study now
thats what i need to pull through the day
just a chat and life is back to square one
all alone
just doing it all to make myself smile a bit
but its never the same anymore
life's different now
will it change back to the original when youre back
will it be the same 4 weeks from now
i dont know, i darent think
just taking a step at a time
trying to cry less,
trying to study a little more each day
and waiting so much longer just for an hour of chat
yup, i guess life's been this way for about 2 weeks now
im still hanging on
good thing!
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