tough and strong

has been 2 days since you entered the departure gates...
the day you left, my world came crashing down,
you took the happy side of me away with you
and another bad news came
now i face more responsibilities than just taking care of myself and chionging for prelims
this week's gonna be busy busy
the more busy i am, the lonelier i feel
like its up to me and myself to take care of many things
its just different with you being there and not around me
its no longer easy to get to you as and when i like
i guess i depended too much on you since we got together
or even way back when we were friends and we would text each other everyday
come to think of it i have been messaging you every single day since 010108
except days that i was overseas
gosh, no wonder i feel weird not messaging you now
i guess this trip has made me less dependent on you somehow, so far i guess
and yea more easily contented, when you messaged me this morning i was really taken aback,
i didnt even think i would be messaging you again for this 6 weeks
thought it would just be 6 weeks of waiting for the skyping at night
ah wells, so the message made me a happy little girl
i guess im just so used to having you around that now a part of me is just numb
my hands no longer have yours to hold
i talk much lesser now
i text lesser
i cried more
my mind drift away to you even more...
guess things will get better
it is already turning better
i think soon i'll be able to get through it

PTBF! wanna take this chance to thank you for being there the entire of tuesday
to see me cry like some freakshow
and we ran in the rain with newspapers as umbrellas that afternoon
hugging me the minute you saw me at the skytrain terminal
calling me to check if i was alright
keep comforting me to tell me that everything was ok
and made me realise yes i shouldnt have those pessimistic thought
prove to me i was right not making that selfish decision which was growing at the back of my mind
like i said, i could have just collapsed without you
i could have crumbled to the ground
cried till i flood myself
really, PTBF youre still the best tablemate in the whole wide world!
love ya patrick
study hard for prelims!:D MUACK!