its not that easy

its not that easy anymore, just merely contacting you
got to do so much more
type in more numbers on the cell lets see
37 keys just to make a call
hmm then how bout, calling at the right time else be transferred into the mailbox
thn nudging a million times on msn
doing yoohooos on skype
you there in endless mails
its not that easy to contact through the cyberspace after all
unlike the past, a few rings and youre through
a few words and pring you appeared in front of me
now it takes THE RIGHT MOMENT to see you on skype
and about 5 weeks later to see you
it aint that easy anymore
so it aint the same anymore too
trying to hug through the webcam gosh wad are we doing
trying to talk but the system lagging and all sorts like that
wanted to message and call, but considering the money... well forget it
just blank stares out of the window now
leading me to our past
and well yup nothing more
just looking at our messages, thinking how sweet
but that will have to wait
just nights where i need so much tossing an turning to fall into sleep now
just the morning emails with breakfast
ah i like that part
just bad weird and random dreams showing my insecurity deep inside now
thats the worst
and basically MUGGING
just talking to myself and psyching myself to study now
thats what i need to pull through the day
just a chat and life is back to square one
all alone
just doing it all to make myself smile a bit
but its never the same anymore
life's different now
will it change back to the original when youre back
will it be the same 4 weeks from now
i dont know, i darent think
just taking a step at a time
trying to cry less,
trying to study a little more each day
and waiting so much longer just for an hour of chat
yup, i guess life's been this way for about 2 weeks now
im still hanging on
good thing!