some dumb ass

feel so fucking stupid
shouldnt have asked that question
end up hurting myself.
feel so fucking dumb
shouldnt be begging you like some idiot
the pain pierced right through,
its killing me and you dont even bother to call me
so what if its a misunderstanding
all i needed was reassurance
what do you want from me right now
i cant even get what i really need
are those sweet nothing lipservice?
coz apparently you dont deserve them
you are regarding the normal things that people do as sacrifices
then does this show that i dun deserve anything more than that
my head is spinning with thoughts
thoughts on how to hurt myself physically to numb the injury there deep inside
now i know how people turn suicidal and start carving patterns on their hands
dont worry im not so stupid...