leave me to myself

leave me to it,
leave me alone. i will be able to survive through this
well, i did survive through it
its now all over
i hope
i guess.
oh yes it is.
i just have to answer to my own consequences
even if they feel disappointed at me
even if they think i've changed
it was very wrong from the beginning i know
but i still agreed
so im the culprit
so what if you are the mastermind.
im the one being prosecuted now
i shall face the blinding light at the table
sit on the electric chair.
and face prosecution.
wait it aint that bad i guess...
coz now its all settled
i faced the music and now i feel disappointed at myself too.
the crime scene replayed over and over again
it was very wrong.
i didnt know why i agreed too
a moment of impulse?
sounds so superficial and such an excuse
but it was oh so true.
a moment of being irrational,
so now the consequences come rolling in.
just leave me to the corner of the room. right now
be emotional or just blasting music here and there
or just getting overwhelmed by words once again
or trying to do some chem paper and get wrong here and there
damnit. seems like i forgot all the things that i've learnt
so after all i wouldnt be able to get all my c and d during ct2s

you asked me why cant we share just a few moments of peace together
why the happiness wouldnt last
youre right.
i wonder about these questions too
i guess we wouldnt be able to find the answers
this should be like the life of star crossed lovers maybe?
oh how this reminds me of shakespeare hah!
its funny, lets just laugh
maybe this is the underlying happiness

wish you were here right now, so that i could bawl my eyes off in your arms
melt when you reassure me that youre by my side.
your presence would be of much use right now.
but its all alright.
im ok. being all alone.
im really alright