something so irreplacable

VHAPSODY 09 has ended, so has the late night practices, the thaipan lunches, the camwhoring sessions and so much more
yes the journey has been so tough since the intensive practices for syf all the way till last night...
its a crazy one
we bitched we cried we screamed we whined.
but nothing can beat the response last night.
we rocked the stage
flaws were present nonetheless
but our audience was amazing..
with many thanks to our lovely conductors of coz
i had such a fun time on stage,
despite the fight against stage fright with nothing between me and the audience, i knew i wasnt alone
thank you so much vjco:D
i thought i didnt like it from the start, thought that council was my family
thought that this was nothing more than a platform into vj, dread practices
thought i didnt belong
thought my skills were real bad, that i didnt like co music either..
came with no passion, no excitement
it was just an obligation.
an error from the very beginning.
but everything dawned unto me last night. this is it, the last performance of my life.
i looked at you people... im reluctant to leave.
you people were there who beared with the tough practices till late night.
we were one at the day of syf.
we played and laughed together. you guys made me feel like home.
now youre irreplacable vjco... the music we played last night still rings in my ears now...
special thanks to mdm wee who insisted that i stay put in vjco even when she saw that my heard was with council
guo lao shi and xiang le who made it so real to us that conductors can be just as fun. all your random jokes and funny singing really made practices much more bearable
and to terie and olivia, i was alone in 2008 after rachel left. i was lonely and angsty.
you guys bought laughter back on into my days...
thank you so much!
and hongkong peeps yea we had a fun time last year didnt we:D
to all those who teared laughed and rocked the stage yesterday, I LOVE YALL~!

the very first saturday of the holiday. my first saturday this month without practices.
one long exclamation to describe it:" WOOOOHOOOOOOO"
yes. it felt darn good to sleep till like 1 plus in the afternoon had some porridge
followed by washing this and that
then off set we went to watch ANGELS AND DEMONS
yes i know many had watched it but i cant help it this is my only free day to watch it
hell its so good.
the movie's urging me to read the book!!!
gosh amazing how the moviemakers create the scene of the explosion of that antimatter
of coz my saturday wouldnt have been this amazing without boy beside me
without his shoulders i wouldnt have survived through the show...
his comforting fingers. as he stroked me gently...
and im sure he had such a fun time laughing at my black black mouth
with a standing ovation for the oooh-damn-black squid ink pasta
gosh i'll never eat that thang again, my tongue's still black ):
its 1000 times worse than monster candy!
gotta catch some beauty sleep now :D

im sorry i doubted you sweetie pie. i shouldnt have. this may sound as an excuse but the longer is the length of our relationship the more afraid am i to lose you just like this... i wont do it again. i just wish to say this: im happy today HAPPIA HAPPIA:D