backfire

BSB-crawling back to you
Everybody knows
That I was such a fool
To ever let go of you
But baby, I was wrong
And yeah, I know I said
We'd be better off alone
It was time that we moved on
I know I broke your heart
I didn't mean to break your heart
But baby, here I am
Banging on your front door
My pride's spilled on the floor
My hands and knees are bruised
And I'm crawling back to you
Begging for a second chance
Are you gonna let me in?
I was running from the truth
And now I'm crawling back to you
I know you're in there
You can make me wait
But I'm not going to wait
It's the least that I can do
Just to tell you face to face
I was lying to myself
Now I'm dying in this hell
Girl, I know you're mad
I can't blame you for being mad
But baby, here I am
If you could see these tears I'm crying
Touch these hands that can't stop shaking
Hear my heart that's barely beating
You would see a different man

now im crawling because im just so tired that i no longer have the energy to walk normally.
my body are showing the teeny wheeny little signs to hint to me that i need a break
i see them
but i cant help but ignore them
no is no way for a break
in fact i have no say in giving myself a break
how do i have a break with all the practices ending like at 730 and by the time i get home its already 9pm
even not doing my tutorials will get me no more than 6 hours of sleep everyday
feel like crying because this is such a crazy fight
i guess more of less all their intentions are backfiring i mean
WAKE UP YOUR IDEA, you get us to come down to practice everyday,
we contemplate, our body is here but our souls crave to go match supports crave for a day off just to rest
it backfires because we will think that we can get it tml tml tml and more tml..
yes we're not up to standard, any fool can see that.
but being unproductive in the long hours of practice will end up as nothing in the end
i rather that we have a day or 2 of break, rest our bodies, rest our minds,rest our bruised fingers
then come back and be PRODUCTIVE for a change.
since you all have to insist that we come back everyday, fine... then whats the use of being a family if we have no rights.
we aint robots. we need a rest...
heard of LDMR? its setting in right now...

its eating in from the inside... bit by bit... and it gets worse without you around...
its difficult to meet consecutively for two weeks and now just twice a week
its bad, im so dependent right now...